One step for my 20th

Umur 20 dan masih mikirin diri sendiri? Kelaut aja

If you know what I mean... :) I'll be twenty in a less two months, there are dozen of things always bothers me about being an adult. Don't you feel the same? I must start selecting what is good and what is not. Over this one year and half I've spend most of time taking care of someone's feeling, took more than a lot of efforts... exhausted... tired being tired, I barely feel happy. But, after-like a lifetime consideration-take a lot of thoughts that all not gonna worth my pains, I'll take the risk, I have to let myself having its worth, I have to let God carry out the miracles, yes I have to leave. I don't know that choosing a good and leaving the badness is this hard, especially when you have to face it with no one understand how hard it is. I always believe people have this one turning point that will change their life lead to their right or wrong, if that what's happening to me now, no matter what I have to make it right. If any other burdensome comes I hope it would not as horrible as this one. I'm not gonna feel miserable for leaving badness, am I? If I feel lil bit miserable in fact it is alright. With all this God teaching me how to poor and taking care myself at a time. I hope with this I'll be more wiser and of course mature. I'll learn how to love myself, my family more than anything... literally. If I can face it wisely I think I'll be ready for my 20th.